We should all love God with Strength , in our weakness He is strong.
During all of this with my brother and his family, its turning to His strength that keeps me leveled. How, well for the last two days, I have watched my oldest sister and how she retains her anger and frustration, fighting the urge just to walk over and letting them have it full-bore by relying on her strength. I really admired that. She has battled the same attitude with her own son. She keeps saying "Just leave them alone to wallow in themselves". How true, otherwise the rest of us would become unhinged. The one that really is holding himself back is dad, when he gets hurt. watch out. He having real trouble understanding how his only son can turn on his sister and the rest of us.
Aunt Billie, bless her heart , is trying to help my mom from becoming too worked up. She too has the same trouble only its with both sons. "The Me And Attention Act", sounds political doesn't it. I think my brother and his wife signed this act more than once, along with my cousin Jason.
I just never want to act that way, I really don't. I know we all do it from time to time.
Aunt Billie did mention you Stephen, by quoting a philosophy of yours and she is right, it is a very good one, one that should be followed, "When you feel sorry for yourself, you drive everyone away until you are alone" please forgive me if I didn't get that exactly right. I beg your forgiveness if I ever made you feel that way.
For my brother's 50th birthday, I think he should be presented "The Golden Ass Award" instead of cards by us ex-family members. Given to family members turning the golden age of 50 who call their sister, insensitive, hurtful and selfish when in fact,its the opposite. Believing rumors (blown Way Out 0f Proportion) as truth by people believing they are perfect who in turn are deceitful, having nothing better to do with their time or effort then to judge and run people down, so full of themselves , they need a cup attached to their bottom to catch the excess, of course that is after they remove the stick and discrediting and disowning your family.
Sorry about that, I am venting and getting off the subject, my sister and parents are going to send him cards for his birthday, I hate to see what will happen to them. I spent a who week doing a painting for him for his birthday, but my daughter didn't think he would appreciate it, so I gave it to dad for all his time and trouble, he liked it. I am not sending a card.
i hope and pray things are peaceful and good in your life SCHIZZ, sorry I haven't been myself. I pray and think of you everyday. Please be careful tomorrow, have a good day. Have a wonderful nights rest tonight...love you lots, many hugs and kisses to make up for the days missed
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